Oy vey! We had a rough evening. The day went fairly well, but as soon as Jason came home things started going wacky. Gwen wouldn't stop crying, and thusly woke up Ethan who had only been napping 30 min. He decided that he wasn't going to go back to sleep, so I lost my 'free' time to get laundry and housework done. Because of his missed nap he whined constantly.
It was toasty in the house, so we had egg salad sandwiches for dinner, which Ethan hated (one of the few things he's ever completely rejected). Afterwards, Jason mowed the front yard and gave Ethan his bath. Once he was done, I went to bathe Gwen. I had her in there and was soaping her up when all of a sudden a shoe came flying over my shoulder and landed on her, compliments of her brother. Grrr! Complete havoc ensued, with all the kids screaming and crying and ugh. No one was hurt, but everyone was scared.
Yesterday we went out to Mom & Dad's for Fathers Day. We had a good time and Ethan played himself nearly to sleep.
I'm struggling again with not feeling well. It starts simply, perhaps just a broken glass or someone not taking a nap, and it takes a free-fall from there. All of a sudden everything is unbearable and horrible and depressing. It gets so bad that I'll end up crying all day. All day, constantly. Sometimes leaving the house helps, but a lot of the time the thought of having to find clothes that fit, etc makes it even worse. And I can feel the cloud of depression come down on me as I head back to home anyway.
Tomorrow morning I'm leaving very early to go see A. Daralyn and U. Greg at Mom's house. Should be fun to see them.. They haven't met Gwendolyn yet.
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Adjusting to a new addition to the family is a hard thing to do for everyone. Moms never get enough sleep or alone time and trying to get back in shape is depressing enough without adding the lack of sleep. The feeling that everyone needs or wants something from you and you're only one person ... Take it from one who knows to well, You cannot do it all. The housework will keep. A nap for mommy while the babies are sleeping is much more important. Soon enough you'll have all the time you need to get done the things you want to. David and Jason were not as close in age as Ethan and Gwen, but you have one thing going for you that a lot of women don't, a Loving helpful husband. I wasn't so lucky, but when I look back at theses days they seemed to have gone by way to quickly.
As far as getting back into you old clothes (pre-baby) don't be so hard on yourself. Give yourself some time to do this it took 9 months of getting stretched out to make room for Gwen inside you. You're not even giving yourself half that amount of time to regain your pre-baby state.
It is so "normal" to feel a bit depressed after childbirth and having to cope with a jealous sibling doesn't help matters any. Again believe me I know, but all to soon you'll be looking back and wondering how they grew up so fast.
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